So....

The little ticker up there says 8 days. NOT. So today Dr M checks and says, "Well....so what are we going to do from here? Nada." I say...."I don't know. What I DO know is that I have zero intention of repeating Mira's birth. So if my cervix isn't ready, then I guess I'll have to wait." She says, "That sounds fine."

So basically- when my water broke with Mira my cervix was not ready. I was given cervadil to ripen in. It was the WORST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. And also one in which I WILL NOT consider again. When I was induced with Griffin, my cervix was ready and she was able to reach my amniotic bag of waters. So we went in, she broke my water, and we got some pitocin and had a baby. Easy peasy. Well, if my cervix isn't open enough for her to reach and break my water, then induction is not an option for us since I refuse the Cervadil. So we wait.

We wait and we wait. I am not due for awhile yet, so no worries...however...I can walk, I can run, I can do jumping jacks....and I do not have contractions. Nice, eh? A friend of mine recently posted...."tick tock tick tock....." Yup. That's how it feels. So I think that after next week when nothing has happened, I will continue to pick up shifts and work....because being at home right now this entire week makes me REALLY dwell on the fact that he's STILL IN THERE.

She says to me, "We can talk about it again next week. And then we can talk about it again in 2 weeks." Sigh. Then she says, "See....I'm on call. ALL the time. It's just me, as you know- this is the beauty of my practice. So you can have your baby now, or tomorrow, or next week, or the week after- at 1 am, 4 am, 3 pm, or whenever. It doesn't matter, because I am here. So whenever. I'll be there." So we discussed that when I go overdue (note WHEN) she will send me for an ultrasound just to make sure the water level and such are good since we haven't seen the dude since 18 weeks. And how much do I love Dr. M? SO MUCH.

Now do I know that anything could happen? Of course. But I'm not banking on it.