Resurrection

So I'll resurrect the blog for you.  :) I'll show you what you really want to see- the kid pics, and then give you my thoughts. H is 1! 18 lbs and a midget, but our best eater yet! Too bad his milk allergy limits him! He's a tornado and totally exhausting. He is SO MUCH like Mira was- demanding attention at all times.  He is also the cutest ever right now. Gives kisses with is open mouth and tongue, He likes to hide (see picture) especially when he has something he knows he shouldn't.  He RACES for the pantry when he hears it open, crawls as fast as possible up the stairs when the gate is down. He's something else. 

Griffin FINALLY lost a tooth!! WOOHOO! Mira had lost 7 by this age! GEEZ. He was pretty stoked. 

Here's another pic of H- always trying to get things open, carry things around, whatever he can do that he shouldn't- that's what he's doing.

 

So I quit Facebook. For about the last year I had been wanting to quit.  I have a few friends not on there and I was always secretly, or not so secretly, jealous about it.  I have a terribly addictive personality- in the last year I have taken FB off my phone SEVERAL times in effort to spend less time on it, but it never lasts long- partially because at work I would add it back at lunch.  

1. FB makes me ignore my kids- something I'm always ashamed of, but never can seem to do anything about.  

2. FB makes me spend money- there are ads, you see neat things other people have, you get new ideas, etc. I spend too much money and it's all online shopping- less time online, less money spent.

3. FB makes me annoyed- I'm pretty sure everyone gets this.

4. FB keeps me awake at night- I can't seem to put it down, You just want to look at one thing, and then it leads to another and another. 

I always had an excuse about why I couldn't get off. Family wants to see pics, or I log my workouts there, there's tons of whole30 support there, that's how all people communicate these days, and on and on and on. Well this year I decided that all these excuses are keeping me from becoming the mom and then person I want to be. If someone really wants to see my kids- they are welcome. I want REAL LIFE see you in person friends. I don't want internet friends. I want REAL relationships and connections.  So far I have had zero regrets. I feel free. I feel calm, patient, and focused.  I feel present in the moment at home. I haven't thought about internet shopping once in the last week.  I have talked to friends via text or phone more than ever this week. I HAVE READ BOOKS. I have spent time organizing my home. I am on my way to becoming a happier more fulfilled person. For the first few days I felt like I had all these secrets. It was laughable really. I was doing all these

things and going about my life and NO ONE KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING. Isn't that weird? It's also weird that Sunday I wanted to take Sully to urgent care but I felt like I should get a consensus from others first- but without FB how would I do that? Wait, what? Since when am I unable to trust my own decisions and judgement? How did that happen? Anyway, so far so good. I am beyond happy without Facebook. Why oh why didn't I do it sooner?