FTT

In other words, G has been diagnosed with Failure to Thrive. Great. All this means is that he doesn't grow. It's pretty hard for me NOT to take it personally. I have been his sole source of nutrition since the day he was born. I have tried so hard to do what was healthiest for him, and god knows, breastfeeding hasn't been easy for me. I feel like I have kept something from him perhaps- maybe I should have done something sooner. Why doesn't he grow? Obviously not enough calories. I really hadn't worried about it much because he's so happy, but there has to be a reason for the stunted growth.

Basically we're supposed to pack on the pounds. Give him bottles and add calories to them. We have a ton of breast milk and I will continue to pump for awhile- we'll add formula powder to the breast milk to make it fattier. I feel good about making it to 9 months (well nearly, but he'll have all breast milk until at LEAST 9 mos). It's so much longer than I ever expected to come. I plan to give him bottles throughout the day with extra calories and then nurse him to sleep and nurse him if and when he wakes during the night. That way I won't have to come downstairs in the middle of the night to make a bottle, or get up to pump. I'm not sure how long I will keep up the pumping- really I'm just doing it to make weaning easier on myself and prevent a breast infection.

I'm not nearly as sad as I figured I would be- I think part of me was ready to do it, but I didn't really have a concrete reason to do it other than selfishness. Well....I guess now I do.