Sorry, no pictures...

No pictures this time...just thoughts. You're supposed to have thoughts around New Year's, right? I haven't taken a single pic of M since we've been home. I worked Fri, Sat, Sun, off Mon, and worked yesterday, so there really hasn't been time! I also have no idea where B put my memory card adapter, so there's really no point anyway. God help him if he's lost it...I can't find it anywhere! 9 or so more weeks to go until we add to this family. At my appt the other day there was a newborn that screamed the entire time and I thought, "Oh man, what is M going to think about that?!" It's definitely going to be strange.

She has such a personality. She now thinks "mama" means up because of what I've taught her. She goes up to everyone and says mama so they'll hold her. If you ask a question she holds her hands out palm up like, "I dunno!" She is learning what a cow says, but can't really say "moo" very well. It's pretty cute. My fav is "all done." In this high pitched voice she says, "Aaaahhhh duh!" She's allowing us to read her books more and more. That's really nice. I love it when she brings me one and then backs her butt up top sit on my lap.

It's been an amazing last year with her watching her grow, that's for sure. I am really excited to do it again and I'm getting more and more excited to do it with a boy. I get nervous about whether or not I'll know what to do with him! I need a mama's boy since my girl doesn't seem to want anyone to love on her!

He's been very quiet in there the past few days. I'm trying not to worry about it. He is still breech- which I knew but haven't been worried about. I forget when
M turned but I know it was late compared to most babies. No one really cared at that OB practice either. Well, she told me that if he doesn't turn in about 3 weeks we'll have to start talking turning in the OR....crap!! Then I realized that my placenta is anterior (in the front) and I'm pretty sure that's a contraindication for turning manually because they risk abruption of the placenta. My friend Amanda had a scheduled c-section in September because of this. They scheduled her section at 32 weeks. NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I simply do NOT want a c-section! He's just got to figure it out! You would think with the horror of my last labor that I would be excited at the prospect of this...but let me explain. First, I do believe that God should choose our birthdays. There is a part of me that thinks- wow a week early would be great, but not truly what I want. I think there is something very special about the day he chooses for us. Also, I think that for my mental health I need to know that it can be different. That I can have a baby and it can be pleasant. That my body CAN do the right thing. I also need to know that my doctor can listen to me. Not to mention that if I have a section I can't have Dr. Morris deliver me because she doesn't do them. I think if he doesn't turn soon my anxiety is going to go through the roof. I am just worried he's too big (I feel he's much bigger than M was, and I am measuring a week ahead where I always measured a week or two behind with her). Of course of course, I want us both to be safe and I will do the right thing for both of us, yada yada...but he'll figure it out, right? I'm sure in a couple of weeks I'll be telling you all is ok. Plenty of babies turn late....

There is so much to do before he comes...I sometimes can't fathom it, but I know it will all happen in time. We'd be fine if we just get a car seat. I think I will order that in a week or two and then all else can come later. We have enough clothes now to last a few days at least. I should probably make a list which would help calm my OCD. Alright- time for me to go take a nap as M has finally fallen asleep!! I'll keep looking for my memory card adapter for you!