Mush

Ok, so I haven't been overly mushy for awhile- so here goes. I am just overwhelmed every time I see M with out much I love her. Sure, I'm super overly emotional right now, but still! When the day is over I tend to think- dang, another day is gone- did I spend enough time with her? Did I really play with her or did I do my thing and use the TV as her playmate? Was I annoyed when she needed too much attention? Did I make her spend too much time in her carseat? Did I REALLY pay attention to how wonderful she is? I play these questions over and over and I always find that I didn't appreciate her as much as I wish I did. It's always after she's asleep that I want to hold her so bad. She is letting me rock her to sleep now which is very sweet. B says I shouldn't do it because when we have another one we aren't going to be able to and she's going to expect it. I say there are worse things in life than spending that five minutes in a quiet room singing to my baby. She's just so busy now and doesn't have time for me when she's awake.
Grandma Della and some other family were in town this week- here's M taking a lesson from Grandma!This is our new morning routine- thanks to Pepper. Mira drinks her own bottle now! She is taking her lunch bottle out of a sippy cup too and doing great! She only likes one certain kind of sippy (which leaks everywhere) but I figure she'll get over it.M got a new walker (yes it's up against the wall). She hasn't quite learned to walk behind it yet, but she'll stand and play with it forever! She loves the lights and music. She pulls up on everything now- the cabinets, the wall, her toys, the couch, EVERYTHING! She's pretty good about not crying when she falls. She is cruising in the most primitive form of the word- she's not quick at all, but can get around to where she wants to be.
It is true that my life is consumed with Mira- but I wouldn't have it any other way. Being a mother is the only thing in life I was ever sure of- and it's better than I ever could have imagined.