Wow.

So it's been 10 days and a LOT has happened. I feel like everyone who reads really already knows, so I won't go into too much detail.

Last Thursday at work I got the call that my dad was diagnosed with terminal malignant melanoma in his brain and lungs. It's really quite tragic- he has destroyed himself with alcohol first and now this. It's hard to tell which symptoms are truly caused by which pathology. Molly flew in Friday morning to help get things arranged and we have since spent about 30+ hours in Saint Joe plus driving time. I'm absolutely exhausted. We got him a room at Carriage Square and he seems really content....that part seems a little strange to me, but as long as it's taken care of, it's fine with me. I went in just a few short days to not speaking to him at all to taking control of his life as his power of attorney. I don't really think the emotional part has hit me yet. For now we are just waiting to see if his Medicaid will go into effect and if he gets his disability pay. We have a little more money to spend to make him poor enough to qualify. After that I think I'll be able to breathe a little. I'm pretty worried that I'll somehow screw up the bills. He does pretty well for now- most of the time he can carry on conversations and get around fine, but he gets pretty confused and unsteady. It's supposed to just go downhill from here.

Really, I just want it to go fast. It's actually a bit nice to be able to spend time and talk with my father for the first time in many years. Though obviously altered, he's much better than he's been in a long time. We still have to empty the apartment, but I just can't deal with it right now. I'm going to leave it as is for a couple of weeks and then get my uncles to help me.

In the midst of all of this- the kids had their last day at Pepper's and their first day of preschool!!! G was teary when I dropped him off, but they enjoyed the day! They go back tomorrow for one more 1/2 day and then next week they start full time. I am sad at how much their life has changed with this, but also excited. I think they will learn so much! Mira is right at the age where she loves making friends and there are lots of little girls in her class. She also had her first sleepover with a friend last week. Pretty big stuff!

Yesterday they kids had their daycare physicals with Dr M. G is loosing ground again- due somewhat to our being lax about making him eat and because I cut back his pediasure because he was eating better. He's now 15% for height (as opposed to 40) and 7% for weight (24.8 lbs). Woops! So I ordered the pediasure..... Mira is great! She's 35 lbs- right at 50% for weight and 75% for height!

Griffy is doing great with potty training. He still has to be reminded to go, but sometimes he'll recognize it before we ask! He wears underwear all the time at home but diapers still at nap and when we're out. I know if I just had more time with him he'd be done, but I don't....so we're taking the slow road! Plus if I potty train him now, I'll be at least a year with NO BABY IN DIAPERS! AH! I can't imagine! (Well, except Mira who won't give up her overnight pull-up....)

Triathlon 2 for the season coming up on Sunday morning. I am done after that. I have too much going on right now and I need to focus on other things. I am still going to be running a lot- I'd like to do a 1/2 marathon in the fall, so I'll keep up my workouts, but it won't be as stressful to get them in! Let's just hope the pounds don't start pouring on!

Nothing else to report, as if I needed something else going on in my life right now! I'm just trying to keep my head above water in the day time and my ambien on board so I can sleep at night. Today I am working so I can try and think about someone else's issues for a few hours!